He Weeps

I can't pretend to understand why our birth mom decided to place her child for adoption or how she feels right now.  We love her for the fact that she trusts us to provide her child a safe, healthy environment where she will be loved and cared for.  When she finally met Annie Faith today, we were not in the room, but we were told she spent a good amount of time holding her.When we came into the room, she was still holding Annie and her other child wasn't really sure about the whole situation.  The birth mom got to meet our three boys, that was a scary thought but they all did well.  They are excited about their sister.

The reason I have not shared the birth mom or daughter's names is because we have a semi-open adoption.  We have only shared our first names and all communication will be through the agency from now on.  Our birth mom moved to the care center ran by our adoption agency and told her family she was off at school.  She never told them she was pregnant or that she was going to place the baby.  She has done this all on her own.  I sit here tearing up at the thought of it.  She has faced a lot of difficulty in her life, and in the short time we have known her, she has handled it with maturity and strength.  At the end of the meeting today, I was fortunate enough to pray over our birth mom, her daughter and all of my family.  It is a memory that will forever be etched into my consciousness.  When Lisa texted me to tell me Annie had been born, the song "You are for Me" by Gateway Worship was playing (perfect timing), but I would like to leave you with a song that I think fits my over all feeling, and this one is for the birth mom. I hope I get to see her again some day. Please keep her in your prayers.

Joel

"He Weeps"- Fireflight

Where is God when the rain falls
And takes the car off the road
Is He standing in the storm
Where is God when the child cries
And no one bends to pick her up
Could someone tell me what He does

He weeps, He weeps with you
He weeps with me
When I'm on my knees
And I taste defeat
He weeps, He weeps

Where is God when she won't eat
When her bones start to show
Is He there when she's lost control
Where is God when a father
Turns his back on his son
Can someone tell me what He does

He weeps, He weeps with you
He weeps with me
When I'm on my knees
And I taste defeat
He weeps, He weeps

If today's your darkest day
And you can't escape the pain
Don't be afraid
He will never walk away

He weeps, He weeps with you
He weeps with me
When you're on your knees
And you taste defeat
He weeps, He weeps
He weeps with you
He weeps with me
When you're on your knees
And you taste defeat
He weeps, He weeps